Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Dancing with NED

Well the doctors have said I am NED! Ned means No Evidence of Disease. Woooo! Seems so crazy after almost 7 months of having cancer to be rid of it. Now the plan is just continue on the Avastin every 3 weeks. It is a short (30 minute) IV infusions at the Huntsman. I will meet with my surgeon every 3 months for 2 years and then after that every 6 months for 3 more years and then hopefully only once a year forever. 

I woke up this morning to this beautiful sunrise. I guess the smog is good for something! I don't know why, but the sunrise was so pretty and it really made me feel like it was the beginning not only of a new day, but of a new part of my life :)

I found this quote the other day and it says what I feel about running so perfectly I had to share.
Truly, I love running. It's who I am. It's a part of me. Even if I can only run for 10 minutes, I feel whole and happy. And if everything else is falling to pieces, I go for a run, and I feel like things are going to be okay.
--Johanna Olson, Olympic Marathon Trials runner who died of brain cancer at the age of 33 
I seriously love running. Not being able to run and then being able to only do a pathetic jog intermixed with lots of walking has really been hard for me. I am starting to be able to run a little better; a little longer with less breaks and sometimes even a little faster. It has definitely been something I've had to adjust to and deal with. People think that now I'm done with chemo I am all better and normal. My life is still definitely not normal. It will never go back to how it was before. I probably won't feel really recovered until I can actually run again like I used to. And who knows if that will even happen! It is definitely an adjustment going back to "normalcy". But I am excited to be able to move on with my life a little. It was nice to have Monday free this week and not spend it at the Huntsman (even though I am here now on Wednesday).

Yesterday my friend Aimee came over with her super cute 6 month old! Aimee and I have known each other since FIRST grade. How cool is that? It was fun visiting with her and even fun playing with Eliza. She is the cutest tiniest little person. I hope that my babies are as cute and tiny as her. And she didn't even cry when I held her. Most babies really hate me. Seriously. It made me feel happy that she let me play with her.

I forgot to write that Saturday I went night skiing with Sterling and my sis-in-law Ashlynn and our two Australian friends Kaila and Sierra. It was fun and not too terribly cold and really nice to get out of the nasty smog. I snowboarded instead of skiied because I hardly ever board and thought it would be better for the icy night conditions. Unfortunately the very first run I felt right on my tailbone soooooooooo hard I couldn't even move for a second. It still hurts. A lot. Otherwise it was pretty fun :)
It amazes me how attractive we are.


  1. I about cried when I read this!!! SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!! You have no are a miracle!!!

  2. Stick with NED, seems like an awesome dance partner. I'm so Happy for you, I love reading your blog and seeing your pictures. You are a strong young woman. The Lord will continue to bless you!

  3. Kalina - I have been crying with joy for ten straight mins. I am so excited for you and we love you so much! Congrats!!! Kisses and hugs from our house.
    Shaeley and fam

  4. Kalina my dear, all our prayers have been answered. I am soooooo thrilled for you, Sterling and your families. I have goosebumps even writing this and thinking about how blessed you are. Thanks for keeping us updated. You will continue to be in our prayers.
    Love you sweet lady,
    Kelly Bowyer :O)

  5. So many prayers have been answered! I'm in tears! I wish i could give you a big hug and celebrate with you!

    ps. not all babies hate you. If I remember correctly, Lucia LOVED you! :)

    1. I actually was thinking about her as I wrote that and thought "I should add that Lucia liked me too" but then I never did add it in haha. But it made me feel happy that Lucia liked me :) :)

  6. Hey, there was that girl that dropped the money jars for you a while ago at UVU subway, the pickep up one of them, but I guess she forgot about the other one. So if you guys wanna come pick it up some time?

    1. Yeah that would be great! Is it just on the Subway counter? We will try to come by Friday or sometime next week. Thank you!

  7. Congratulations, Kalina! I've been a lurker I guess for a while now, and I've always enjoyed reading your uplifting posts and praying for you. I don't think you know me - I was in Sterling's ward back in high school - but I just want you to know that you've made a positive difference in my life and the world, and I'm thankful for people like you. Thanks for giving it your all and being a true victor in every sense of the word. All of us need a hero like you to look up to.

    Grady Deakin

  8. One must be grateful when they are able to walk,and jog some.
    love ya

  9. The day will come when we face the Lord, and give Him an account of the missions we fulfilled in this life, Kalina, you will be one of the great people, that will report, "I served my mission with honor and dignity". We are so blessed yo be part of your life, we Love you, it is an honor to know you. Love Grandpa Kunz and Isabell


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